Title I am Her...
Author Sarah Ann Walker
Release Date October 1, 2012
A sometimes funny, tragically graphic, compelling tale of a woman suffering...
***WARNING- GRAPHIC CONTENT and THEMES ***
She has no name of her own. She is every name everyone has ever called her. She is nameless. She has a good job, a beautiful home and a wonderful husband. She is everything she was supposed to be. She has structure and stability, but she is lost.
She is trying. Her whole life is spent trying; yet her whole life has been nothing but an apology. She is so tired of trying and failing.
In just one week, she learns her entire life is a series of brutalities. She learns intense, consuming passion for the first time with a beautiful stranger. She learns love within this passion, and she learns heartbreak while without.
Slowly her breakdown overcomes her. She tries to rise above her circumstances, but when she has nothing left to fight with; she tries to ease the pain forever.
Desperately, she fights her way through the agony of life, and she returns with a gentle hope. She wants to live, and she wants to love, for the first time in her life. Now, she has a name. Now, she can be 'her'... Any HER that she wants to be.
What in the hell did I just read? Honestly, I have no idea.
So, I was somewhat iffy whenever I decided to read this. The blurb seems interesting, but eh... who knows? I decided to take a chance on it, though, because of the good reviews I've read. However, I'm not sure I read the same book as everyone else. I just can't possibly understand the good reviews. I tried. I tried really hard! I just don't get it. That being said, I don't particularly enjoy writing negative reviews. I understand how much time and effort went into writing a book and I never want to try and discredit an author's hard work. Still, though, sometimes a negative review just cannot be avoided. This is certainly one of those times.
I spent the majority of this book in absolute confusion. No, not the majority. That's a lie. I spent the *entire* book in absolute confusion. NOTHING made sense to me. At the end of it all, I just didn't care enough to try and figure it all out. I mean, I understand the events that happened, but I just don't get it. Oh, and of course the book ends on a cliffhanger and there's a sequel. I don't care, though. I don't think anything in this world could convince me to read the second book.
Do yourself a favor and skip this book. It's not worth the time or the money.
While it's something I very rarely do, I took little notes while reading this book. If you'd like to see them, check out the spoilers below.
10% - Book reads like a woman having a mental breakdown. Chaotic, crazy, all over the place. Somewhat hard to understand as there are time gaps in her memory.
12% - This Z guy is absolutely crossing a line. He doesn't know this woman, he has nothing more than a professional relationship with her, but is demanding and intimidating.
13% - By this point in the book she claims that there's never this much drama in her life and her husband wants her to be drama-free. It's hardly believable. Okay, maybe she is drama-free, but she's certainly not mentally stable.
15% - This Z guy is making me uncomfortable! I'm pretty sure his comments could definitely be considered sexual harassment in the work place.
16% - How old is this woman? I'm assuming that she's supposed to be between 20 and 40 (wide range, I know), but I'm having a hard time believing her behavior and thoughts could possibly come from someone of that age. I guess age certainly doesn't equal maturity in this situation.
18% - Legitimate question to consider: Does this woman have dissociative identity disorder? That's my theory.
21% - Okay, so she's 29 years old and her husband is 35. This provides no insight into the craziness that is this book. Got it.
25% - It's no longer a question of whether or not this woman has DID (which I still believe she does), but whether or not she's insane! Who goes to meet a stranger in a cheap motel? Especially one that she claims to possibly be afraid of. What?!
31% - Surely this woman isn't actually 29 years old. My god, she acts like a child. It's making this book painful to read.
33% - Exactly how rough do you have to be during sex to tear a woman enough that she needs stitches?!
36% - For someone that doesn't like sex and thinks anything remotely related to sex is gross, she sure does have earth shattering orgasms rather easily with Z. How does that work? Speaking of sex with Z, I assume she has completely forgotten that she's married to someone else and Z is still a stranger. Does she even know his first name?!
39% - I feel like I should just stop reading right here. This woman is going to cause me to lose my mind…
43% - I think she just has a psychotic break at Macy's. I'm… flabbergasted, really.
51% - I just don't… I truly don't know what is going on anymore. No, wait. Yep, certainly seems to be DID.
54% - I give plain give up! This woman has the WORST luck out of anyone that has ever existed.
65% - I think I could skip the next 30% of this book and not miss anything relevant. Everything, at this point, feels so incredibly repetitive. I get it. She has panic attacks. If I have to read one more time about how she needs to breathe, I might just lose it.
67% - Everything is ridiculous. Everything. I can't even find the enjoyment in rolling my eyes at this craziness!
77% - I thought she was making progress. I thought the craziness was over. Nope! Just kidding. She's still loony.
83% - Hmm? What? That's (possibly) a strange turn of events. What's happening here?
90% - I've lost any and all interest in this book. It's beyond redemption. I'll be skimming to the end (which is exactly what I did).
1 out of 5 stars